Saturday, October 6, 2007

From my journal



















The Mornings
I wake with the crowing of the roosters at about 5:30. My routine has been to stand at my little window that looks out on the rising sun and praying three prayers: The Daily Office from a book given to me by my Irish friend, a prayer to Divine Providence from the CDP sisters and finally a special prayer I wrote to unite me with my friends. When I rise, they are going to sleep. We pray the same daily/nightly prayer but on different continents.
I open the door to my little house and find Syokwaa starting the fire for the morning tea and breakfast. All the food is cooked on a fire started outside each day. Sometimes the open fire is built in the "kitchen" and so the house is always smoky. Every house has a little fire built outside and they glow each night. Beans and rice are always cooking somewhere. The day also begins with a walk to the water. There is a well dug and lines run to spickets throughout the village but often, more times than not, the generator for the pump is not working or turned off to conserve water in the arid land. I walk, like all the other villagers, to get water for washing or a morning "shower". My room has a little side room, or latrine with a hole in the concrete floor. Once you use the bathroom, you sprinkle a cup of ashes (from last nights fire) over it to keep down the smell and the insects. There is also a little space to shower – which is a bucket of water over your head – very cold in the morning, Sometimes I place a bucket of water in the hot sun and have a warmer shower after work. You get use to it all – the shower and the latrine and the bugs. Water is a major issue – finding it, carrying it, drinking it. I drink from big 10 liter bottles of clean water, purchased in Kitui (about and hour and a half away by truck) although I have been drinking some of the local water if it is boiled. It is heavy in saline and fluoride.
Food
Food is a variation on a theme. Residents of the Village receive shipments of bags of rice, corn (Maize) and beans. Lunch and dinner are some combination of these. You've seen the big bags from the WFP – World Food Program. At times there is some meat. A cow broke it's leg last week and the village had some meat. It won't keep long – no refrigeration, Ugali is made from maize flour – stiffer than mashed potatoes and not as flavorful. Scuma is the local vegetable grown everywhere, It is not my favorite. Chapati is a flat bread fried in a hot skillet with a few of the meals. Drink is always water. Morning is either bread and butter, cold sweet potatoes but sometimes little cakes or mondazis.



My Work
I have been working at a library space shelving 32 cases of donated books from the U.S. I have divided into Preschool, Lower Primary, Upper Primary and Secondary. There can be no check out, maybe eventually, but the books would never return or return in poor shape. The library has a number of issues, the biggest being the dirt and dust that gets blown in every night. Everything gets a layer of dirt nightly. I purchased some heavy material from the town of Kitui, about an hour away. I sewed, with the help of Agnes, some panels that fit over each shelving unit. The sewing machine is one of about ten here, all pedal run. They make the students' school uniforms here – a smart mint green shirt and light green plaid shorts and jumpers. Eventually I learned the rhythm of the sewing machine pedals. Therr were also ten laptops which were donated and loaded with educational software. The computer issue is the lack of electricity. We are hoping to purchase solar panels – with the help of some donated funds! and therefor be able to light the room at night and power the laptops. The computers run Edubuntu – a software unfamiliar to me but is a version of Lynux as opposed to Windows. We will need to schedule classes for computer use and use of the library books. It is difficult because it "doesn't fit into the national curriculum.
Kamba
The language is a bit of a challenge. IO know just a bit of Swahili – as do some of the locals and many children, but the language spoken here is Kamba, the tribal language of this area and group. I am learning slowly with the help of the staff but especially from the children, They are eager to help me and laugh at my mistakes. Some greetings like "wamukaata", "waja" "uvawaku" are all greetings of a sort and used a lot. Others are much more difficult and the inflection changes everything. Mazungu is the word heard most often around me - "White Guy". I do stick out a little. There are only two of us anywhere near here. The kids stroke my hands because they are soft and pull the hairs on my arms and stroke my beard. All novelties.
Weather – Hot and no chance of rain tonight
The weather is hot and dry – similar to Vegas maybe in the days, quickly cool at night. By noon or 1:00 it is pretty intense. I have no clue how hot it is, no weather report or thermometer. There is almost always a breeze, stirring up the dirt! Most of the time the sky looks like the opening of a Simpson episode or a Windows Screen saver – bright blue with white fluffy clouds. Oh the nights! I have seen a huge full moon night but also the moonless nights where the stars take your breath away. You can see the Milky Way clearly. The only lights you can see are the flicker of fires built next to each of the 25 little houses for cooking. Currently there are about 185 children and 25 grandparents or caregivers. The oldest is 96. Everyone sings and dances – especially at church services and at school. The boys are always dancing and singing and hanging all over each other. Any friends walk hand in hand, arm and arm, no matter if they are boys or girls. It is interesting and catches you eye at first until you get used to the custom. There is never any feelings of being self conscious with physical affection.


Kitui
The trip to Kitui was long in coming. Kitui Town is about an hour (depending on the roads) form the village. It is the largest town anywhere close to the Village. It is only there where we can get supplies like bottled water, PB and J, etc, There are also two old computers in the town but I didn't have time to wait for one or wait for the power to come on. The manager of the village drove to Kitui to get an important email, only to find that the power had gone out. a wasted day's trip. When people hear there is a truck going to Kitui, everyone wants to get on board. we took a flatbed truck in order to pick up some raw wood etc. for a building project. The roads are crap – terrible and the drivers must maneuver like driving in a mine field. All the wood will need to be planed and cut, and dried before use. There is also an ATM, although my friend had his card taken by the machine. We wnt to lunch at a "nice" restaurant – beef chips and "fries" for four people cost about $8.00 US. Tasty after rice and beans and we had a Coke! There is a truck sent to pick us up along with the supplies. I ride in the back of the truck with about eight other locals. I get the points and stares – Mazungu. We stop at a service station and pick up more passengers. By this time I am crowded – sitting on a wooden bench, trying to keep my hat on and my back in alignment. Did I say the roads are crap? We ride for about an hour, headed home until we come to the junction in the road that we turn off for the 30 minute ride on dirt. We stop and squeeze six more people on the truck. A old woman, in her eighties cannot climb onto the truck. She hands me her live chicken, feet tied to hold for her. I can't refuse . Flapping wings and biting at me I hold the chicken she will no doubt kill for dinner tonight. It was quite a ride.

Nairobi for the Weekend

I have some postings on a USB drive I am hoping to load on the blog sometime in the next day or so - if all goes well and I can get access. I also hope to upload some pics.

I came to Nairobi yesterday to purchase solar panels for a library project I am working on in the Village of Kitui, about 3 and a half hours from Nairobi. I am also now the Volunteer Coordinator for the Village and am meeting three new volunteers to give them a brief orientation on the Guest House, Kamba tribe, and life in Nyumbani Village. They are from New Guinea, Australia and the US. Know that things are going well - very different with no electricity, plumbing, good water but I am thoroughly enjoying the work and the people. I hope to load part of my journal soon.

I head back to Kitui Sunday night. More to follow!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Leaving Nairobi

Today may be the last post for a while. In a few hours we head to Kitui so the emails and the blog may be slim. Yesterday was a wonderfully relaxed day. They all have been actually. I got to read and reflect and write. September 10th was such a meaningful day, according to the book I am reading, for the Missionaries of Charity and Mother Teresa. It was a day she received a word from God asking her to begin a "vocation within a vocation." She believed it was the beginning of the new Order and she named September 10th "Inspiration Day." It was that for me as well - 61 years later.

There is quite a crew being transported to the Village. I am concerned at the number of people and space for all my luggage! 2 Americans, 1 Chinese, 2 Italians and 3 Kenyans. I may be riding on the roof.

I will update when I can. Peace, out.

Monday, September 10, 2007

15th Anniversary of Nyumbani


I added a few pics HERE

I Had A Dream

I was warned that the anti-malarial drugs can sometimes give you weird dreams, depressions, paranoia, etc. So far - the only strangeness are my dreams. Oooohhweeeee. Not exactly terrible nightmares but so interesting. Last night was earthquake dreams, the earth opening up to fire and volcanic action below. I thought "That is really interesting and hot" then I woke up. I had others over the last nights but I'll spare you. Some are pretty funny.

Mass yesterday was really wonderful. The children sang and danced even more than the last time I visited. They dance a lot throughout the mass, repetitive chants etc. Very cool. It also rained last evening which made it misty this morning.

The phone situation seems to work well with a new $30.00 cell phone. I can purchase minutes and text my children - at least from here in Nairobi. We'll see Tuesday night if it works from Kitui.

I continue to read the Mother Teresa Book (letters) about her struggle with "feeling" the presence of God. She writes of the struggle from about the time she founded the new order of Missionaries of Charity, throughout her work with the poor, until her death. The book is really touching me in a unique way. It makes her journey of faith even more impressive and her struggles so human. Yet in her struggles, she continues to work, pray, reach out and long for the presence she once felt tangibly.

I should be able to update once more before leaving for the village. It is all so good.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

Ken

I guess I have been complaining a little eh? A headache,back sore, etc. etc. I sat with Ken for a short while last night. He is in the sick room here. Ken I met last visit. He would sit outside in the sun, warming himself. Sr .Julie would take him on her lap in the car for a drive if he would eat. He would steer and play with the radio. He fit right in with other crazy Nairobi drivers. He is twelve years old but looks five. He was basically abandoned last year in the slums of Kibera. He now weighs 22 pounds and I am afraid he is dying. Feeding tube, IV, his big black eyes staring at me, wondering,I am sure, what is going on and why the pain he can't verbalize. It made me grateful for what the latest drugs have been able to do - saving so many children of this horrible fate. But Ken won't eat - a symptom of HIV and without proper nutrition, the drugs don't work. And so I am blessed to be able to sit with this little boy and stroke his legs and pray for a miracle. His name is Ken. How many others are just like him but alone?

In other news . . . today is the 15th Anniversary of the Nyumbani Children's Home. A big mass,celebration, food and dance! I helped the cooks prepare for hundreds of participants and did dishes! Afterwards we went to the grocery in Karen to buy a phone and phone cards. We also got some water for my trip Tuesday to the Village. Life is moving along.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Nyumbani Means Home

The flight from Lonon to Nairobi was interesting and now it is over - good. I went through some air/car/altitude sickness but feel much better after some sleep. It is amazing how much I felt like I was coming home when we were driving from the airport. The sights, sounds and smells were so familiar and then arrival at the orphanage in Karen (Nairobi) I felt right at home an fell quickly to sleep for four hours in my little temporary home/dorm room! Great to see the staff and the kids. Sr. Julie an Joseph (one of the drivers) picked me up at the airport and then gave me space to rest - which I needed desperately.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of Nyumbani. Big celebrations planned - so a great time to arrive. I wont go to the Village in Kitui until Tuesday evening. I'll have some time to get acclimated in Africa, pick up some water and hopefully a phone.

Not much else to report other than I made it here safely. Good things continue to happen for me - inside and out. I remain grateful an excited. Continue to pray for me an the kids here, especially Ken - a little guy I met last visit who is struggling.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

It's all about presence

Perhaps because my sleep patterns are messed up, I was awake at midnight here in London. The little hotel was filled with murmerings and sounds but I can usually sleep through anything, even police helicopters circling the area with searchlights. But I was able to read and write more than I had been for a while. It was good. I have so much to learn and I have been concerned how I would learn about what this journey means to me and the the rest of my life. Is it the work that is important? Is it the location? For months now it has been about getting here and now that I am on my way - what am I really doing? and why? It seems as though I just blinked and I am in London and not going home for quite a while. It has been about getting to this point, discerning, deciding, departing, planning . . . . now what? Is it simply about the work now? Last night I had a realization that it is not the work, not the place, not Kenya. It is about finding my life "in God" and allowing myself to be lead. I am convinced that it is all about presence - for those with whom I come into contact, those with whom I will live and work - and allowing them to be that presence and representation of God for me. I came to realize that, just as Jesus has got to be my companion (the one I longed for for this journey), the Spirit has got to be my teacher and let me know what in the world I am doing and draw me deeper into his life, draw me into what has been described as a DANCE. The journey has got to become non-geographic and has to go deeper. I long for a deeper prayer-life and union with God and His creation. I have been given all the tools and have been taught well by so many. Now, the only thing left to do is the doing. Last night was a good start!

The buzz in London is about terror attacks and thwarting them wordwide. It covers the papers and is the subject of the news. Security and the ability to live with insecurity. . . . life is short eh? I am so full these days, it doesn't seem fair and I remain grateful for every minute of the journey, be it in London, Nairobi, Burlington or Milford. Never let it be forgotten that I am here because of the goodness and kindness of so many people who have freed me to go on the journey. It is all good. I look forward to many more deep, dark, silent nights where the only light is His and it is the same light present in every continent. . . . and once again, Ed smiles.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Mind the Gap

I made it to London. It was a good flight. I had a little difficulty recognizing my bags and took the wrong one. It sure is difficult to return a bag back through security. But . . all is well and the guy whose bag I had will need to get over it. I am settled into a little hotel in Earls Court. Simon, the British Airways pilot, may try to catch up with me tonight. I fly out tomorrow night for Nairobi. I just keep smiling - I mean it! I just find myself smiling, sometime tearing up, sometime staring into the distance - Some of it is fatigue. Some is time change and lag but mostly, I am just loving this whole trip.

Thanks to all - my mom, kids, Chris for the ride, Mark for the ticket, teachers and staff, parents and students - everybody. I would not be sitting in this Internet Cafe today without you. Picture me grinning. More from Kenya.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Tuesday September 4

Hoping to fly out tonight. All looks well and I will arrive in London tomorrow morning. I'll spend the night in London and fly to Nairobi on Thursday night. It sounds like I'll get to the Village of Kitui sometime next Monday. It has been so sweet to say "goodbye" to friends and family. I know the time will go quickly and all will be well. I guess it is just the distance between us. More honestly though, it has been a time of recognition of the depth of love I have for my family and friends. It has been a time to stop and recognize how grateful I am for my mom, my daughter and two sons who have allowed me to go on this adventure. The sadness and tears that welled up in parting are more just a realization of how much I love them all as well as their love for me. It is all so good.

I drop the leased car off and Chris takes me to the airport. Then I wait and pray that I get on standby. It will work out. If not - I will try again on Wednesday! I will be able to write and update the blog in London and for a brief time in Nairobi. I am also working on a site where I can post pictures. HOPEFULLY YOU CAN SEE THEM HERE.